The PAST holds you in a mortal grip. Emotions left over from an earlier time are at the heart of grief. Please don't keep throwing yourself to the wolves in order to prove yourself, or your love. If it isn't working for you anymore, move on, or make a clean sweep of it, rather than hurting or incriminating yourself out of fear.
You need a guide through this turbulent time. You need to recognize, you are grasping onto the past, and have to be freed of its grasp. There can be no harmony without first resolving this crucial issue. You may never experience inner peace until these issues are resolved. Go out with dignity or make the inevitable changes on your own terms. You might actually feel relieved, in control and liberated.
While this may be the end of one era, it can be the beginning of another, as long as you let go of the painful past. It is essential that you replace the power the past has upon your soul with positive energy! Lay a disappointing past to rest and free yourself to move on. Don't be a captive and miss out on the wonderful future. Don’t let the past hold your future hostage.